~ about a boy… ~

“You fall for this boy, and he burns holes in your skin with his mouth. He fills your head like a deadly poison and you let it take over you -what other choice do you have? Without this boy, you’d surly die. Ironic isn’t it? How is it possible that you can love someone so much, that you would endure any amount of pain just to be with them?” (via here)

 

“I mean, they say you die twice. One time when you stop breathing and a second time, a bit later on, when somebody says your name for the last time.” (via here)

“Do you know what it’s like to be a lover? A half of a whole?” (via here)

“The pearls weren’t really white, they were a warm oyster beige, with little knots in between so if they broke, you only lost one. I wished my life could be like that, knotted up so that even if something broke, the whole thing wouldn’t come apart.” (via here)

~ chasing dreams ~

“Dreams are always crushing when they don’t come true. But it’s the simple dreams that are often the most painful because they seem so personal, so reasonable, so attainable. You’re always close enough to touch, but never quite close enough to hold and it’s enough to break your heart.” (via here)

“The pearls weren’t really white, they were a warm oyster beige, with little knots in between so if they broke, you only lost one. I wished my life could be like that, knotted up so that even if something broke, the whole thing wouldn’t come apart.” (via here)

“Be what you would seem to be, or, if you’d like it put more simply: Never imagine yourself not to be otherwise than what it might appear to others that what you were or might have been was not otherwise than what you had been would have appeared to them to be otherwise.” -  Lewis Carroll (via decrepito)

“And once the storm is over you won’t remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won’t even be sure, in fact, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm you won’t be the same person who walked in. That’s what this storm’s all about.” (via atomos)

~ indifference ~

“These were the lovely bones that had grown around my absence. The connections, sometimes tenuous, sometimes made at great cost, but often magnificent. That happened after I was gone. And I began to see things in a way that let me hold the world without me in it.” ( via here )

“You don’t know what goes on in anyone’s life but your own. And when you mess with one part of a person’s life, you’re not messing with just that part. Unfortunately, you can’t be that precise and selective. When you mess with one part of a person’s life, you’re messing with their entire life. Everything… affects everything.” ( via here )

“The opposite of love is not hate, it’s indifference. The opposite of art is not ugliness, it’s indifference. The opposite of faith is not heresy, it’s indifference. And the opposite of life is not death, it’s indifference.” ( via here )

“I don’t miss him anymore. Most of the time, anyway. I want to. I wish I could but unfortunately, it’s true: time does heal. It will do so whether you like it or not, and there’s nothing anyone can do about it. If you’re not careful, time will take away everything that ever hurt you, everything you have lost, and replace it with knowledge. Time is a machine: it will convert your pain into experience… It will force you to move on and you will not have a choice in the matter.” ( via here )

~ it’s like 1º C ~

The moment I post this, the temperature is like 1º C outside! Can’t believe how weather changes within a day… it’s gone crazy!

“The only person standing in your way is you, it’s time to let her go. Lose yourself.” ( via here )

“In three words I can sum up everything I’ve learned about life: it goes on.” ( via here ) 

“You have been told that, even like a chain, you are as weak as your weakest link. This is but half the truth. You are also as strong as your strongest link. To measure you by your smallest deed is to reckon the power of ocean by the frailty of its foam. To judge you by your failures is to cast blame upon the seasons for their inconstancy.” ( via here ) 

“There is a twilight zone in our hearts that we ourselves cannot see. Even when we know quite a lot about ourselves – our gifts and weaknesses, our ambitions and aspirations, our motives and our drives – large parts of ourselves remain in the shadow of consciousness. This is a very good thing. We will always remain partially hidden to ourselves. Other people, especially those who love us, can often see our twilight zones better than we ourselves can. The way we are seen and understood by others is different from the way we see and understand ourselves. We will never fully know the significance of our presence in the lives of our friends. That’s a grace, a grace that calls us not only to humility, but to a deep trust in those who love us. It is the twilight zones of our hearts where true friendships are born.” ( via here ) 

~ time for changes ~

“I don’t know what’s worse: to not know what you are and be happy, or to become what you’ve always wanted to be, and feel alone.” — Daniel Keyes, Flowers for Algernon (via decrepito)

Don’t exist.
Live.
Get out, explore.
Thrive.
Challenge authority.
Challenge yourself.
Evolve.
Change forever.

(via decrepito )

Be willing to change first of all yourself in order to change the world…

“Life is so beautiful that death has fallen in love with it, a jealous, possessive love that grabs at what it can. But life leaps over oblivion lightly, losing only a thing or two of no importance, and gloom is but the passing shadow of a cloud.” — Yann Martel (via atomos)

I close my eyes and I let my body shut itself down and I let my mind wander. It wanders to a familiar place. A place I don’t talk about or acknowledge exists. A place where there is only me. A place that I hate. I am alone. Alone here and alone in the world. Alone in my heart and alone in my mind. Alone everywhere, all the time, for as long as I can remember. Alone with my Family, alone with my friends, alone in a Room full of People. (via atomos)

“I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they’re right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.” (via somedayiseveryday)

(via designspiration )

~ sucked by a black hole ~

I feel so lost and tired. Quite the perfect ingredients for a hard night.

“If I could make the world as pure and strange as what I see, I’d put you in the mirror, I put in front of me.”

“We are all a volume on a shelf of a library, a story unto ourselves, never possibly described with one word or even very accurately with thousands. A person is never as quiet or unrestrained as they seem, or as bad or good, as vulnerable or as strong, as sweet or as feisty; we are thickly layered, page upon lying page, behind simple covers. And love – it is not the book itself, but the binding. It can rip us apart or hold us together.” —Deb Caletti (via troubled)

“If only there could be an invention that bottled up a memory, like scent. And it never faded, and it never got stale. And then, when one wanted it, the bottle could be uncorked, and it would be like living the moment all over again.” — Daphne Du Maurier (via venebelle)

“When we hold each other, in the darkness, it doesn’t make the darkness go away. The bad things are still out there. The nightmares still walking. When we hold each other we feel not safe, but better. “It’s all right” we whisper, “I’m here, I love you.” and we lie: “I’ll never leave you.” For just a moment or two the darkness doesn’t seem so bad.” — Neil Gaiman (Neil Gaiman’s Midnight Days)

“I don’t know if you’ve ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That’s why I’m trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning.” — The Perks of Being a Wallflower (via imagefree)

“Do you ever wonder whether people would like you more or less if they could see inside you? I always wonder about that. If people could see me the way I see myself – if they could live in my memories – would anyone, anyone, love me?” — John Green (via dishevelment)

( Most of the photos via here )

~ within and without ~

“Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won’t either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could.” — Louise Erdrich, “The Painted Drum” (via black-wolves)

“When you want to do something it should be connected to all of the things you believe in your life and that’s where I think people continue to compromise themselves to the point of losing the meaning of what this is all about, this time that we have on this planet.” — Shervin Pishevar (via unknown-voyage)

“I’m saying that I’m a moody, insecure, narrow-minded, jealous, borderline homicidal bitch, and I want you to promise me that you’re okay with that, because it’s who I am, and you’re what I need.” — Jeaniene Frost, “Halfway to the Grave” (via sevum)

Just some stuff I accidentally fell on while I was wandering around the net and lets say discribe my feelings this gloomy sunday afternoon…

~ my disguise ~

“I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I do not know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when I fall asleep your eyes close.” - Pablo Neruda, 100 Love Sonnets: Cien sonetos de amor 

(via g-uise)

“Right now I want a word that describes the feeling you get – a cold, sick feeling deep down inside – when you know something is happening that will change you, and you don’t want it to, but you can’t stop it. And you know, for the first time, for the very first time, that there will now be a before and an after, a was and a will be. And that you will never again be quite the person you were.”  — Jennifer Donnelly 

“I hope you live a life you’re proud of. If you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.” — F. Scott Fitzgerald

(via moldavia)

 (via here)

~ chasing happiness ~

I am very happy
Because I have conquered myself
And not the world.
I am very happy
Because I have loved the world
An not myself.
I am very happy
Because I have not surrendered
Either to the world or to myself.

- Sri Chinmoy

The Sun (feat. Nili) - Villeneuve

(via here and here)

~ scattered thoughts… ~

“You can’t be brave if you’ve only had wonderful things happen to you.” – Mary Tyler Moore

“If you hold back on the emotions – if you don’t allow yourself to go all the way through them – you can never get to being detached, you’re too busy being afraid. You’re afraid of the pain, you’re afraid of the grief. You’re afraid of the vulnerability that loving entails. But by throwing yourself into these emotions, by allowing yourself to dive in, all the way, over your heard even, you experience them fully and completely.” — Mitch Albom

“When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives mean the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares.”—HenriJ.M. Nouwen